ThinInside

I have gained weight! On Thanksgiving I ate really light, Friday I cheated a bit and had an apple and bagel for breakfast at about 4:30 in the morning (trying to catch those sales!) a banana for snack at around 9:00, Zesty Chicken Ranch Sandwich and fries from Applebees at about 2pm, a cinnamon raisin bagel and banana at around 9:30 pm and then ended up eating an omelette and hashbrowns early Saturday morning (at about 2:30). Then Saturday I ate light again! Sunday I had my trusty bagel and banana for breakfast and did not eat again until about 4 pm when I had cabbage, sweet potatoes, and cornbread. I know I’ve had a lot of bread (my friend/enemy). Cabbage has a bloating effect and may not be my friend either, but I love it. I just told my husband what my ideal weight is and he got all happy talking about, ‘we got a lot of work to do baby! let’s get crackin’!’ When I told him about my weight gain, he said ‘you didn’t eat as much but you didn’t exercise either except Friday at the sales…’ He’s right. I do need to get crackin’ on exercising and losing this weight… My 9 yr old son and I are stuck at home right now so I think I’ll pull out my free weights and have him exercise with me. He finds it very entertaining when I exercise… I need the distraction…

I’ve been scared into losing weight!  It’s been something I’ve been battling with since I had my first babies who are now teenagers.  I started at 135, with a medium/large frame so I looked like I was about 115 or less.  (My aunties used to call me anorexic/bulimic but I ate well and kept it all down!)  Now I’m at 201 and have been as high as 210.  My 9 yr old can’t be blamed anymore!  My feet and back are hurting more than ever now and I’m having more headaches!  Got physical last month and no diabetes!  Thank God.  I gotta get some of this weight off me…  My mind keeps going back to before my son was conceived and how I dropped over 30 lbs in 3 months.  Will I ever be able to do that again?!  I was so in love back then (with myself and my boyfriend–>husband).  I had started feeling like a blob until Sunday when I decided to take action and ask for a pair of running shoes instead of cute everyday Pumas or Nikes. I took off work and walked two miles yesterday and my husband went and signed up the whole fam at the fitness club!  Took off work today and went to the club for a workout AND a fitness class!   I know burnout may be lurking, but I can’t burn out cuz I have goals associated with this weightloss.  I need some buddies who know what I’m going through!